dec 12.. how pathetic.... 1 wk down of attachment only.... dead fish man! 2nd wk now, and today is only MONDAY.  4 days more to go in imh... then.. back to AH. ha... depressing.... >_<!!!

oOkies, I cant wait for nxt yr to come, and to complete studies. u dunno how crap headed it is to study nursing. its good and all, yeah.. but no way for me. I AM NOT GONNA BE A NURSE. u noe how much has this argg thing changed me.. it suppose to be for e better.. but NO. I'm becoming worst. terrible attitude and all. i juz noe it. and att cant be more depressing than ever. u dun hv gd companions, nvm, den e hosp is also... hmm... wat more terrible can u feel!! i feel e importance of hvin friends in ur clique w u now. hell crappy freaking arggg... going same att as these ppl ALL E TIME. how frustrating...

I'm getting so pissed off with everything.

anyhows, ken got a sch in aust. congrats to him. was juz telling my mum, if u had send me there after Os, everything wld hv been so so different. everything happens for a certain reason. i cant care less, but sometimes, i really hv regretted why i chose this path. what could i hv done? what am i gonna do in future?

I'm like so freaking stupid w a dumb ass brain. why did i chose a sci course?.. can really turn crazy.

feel so lifeless as i pass day by day. i dunno what i've done in 2005. almost everything sucks. cant really see e positive side. cuz i dunno what they are now. stupid freako...... I HATE MYSELF! birthday sucked. life sucked. countless no. of things sucked compared to previous years. Goodness.

attitude sucks. hell. how to load back my old self. SHIT HEADED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >_<!!!!!!!!!

I wanna get out of sch, and do something else. ken's doing sports sci as elective. how nice!!? he's naughty and all, and yet he gets e unexpected best outcome. why am I who I am?????!!!!!!!!!!!!!! really wanna bang myself and cry.

DEAD.